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On Love and Life
01:57
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I've seen little bits
Of myself
Crumble away with some years
When I've promised more than I should
When I've promised more than I could
To stay myself
With a few jabs, a few well placed words
I start to look like buckshot long-term
And I'm wondering to myself
Who am I anymore?
And who am I doing this for?
I'm not sure if it was us, or
If its just this but fuck whatever it is
I never want to hate my life again
I never want to live that life again
And if i find myself in that spot
I know I'll just want it to stop
And sometimes I wonder if I'm better off
Being alone in the end
It just feels so good and then it turns
Warm to cold and hearts to numb
We stop being excited by each others face
And we start to see everythings thats wrong
How do we arrange these hearts?
So appreciation never stops?
So kind never turns to bitter?
So hope doesn't become regret?
But I feel in my heart that
This cycle will eventually stop
And maybe it just me growing?
And realizing what is important to me
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2. |
Something Better
02:07
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What if you could trade
Those scars for stars
And build something better
Than the life you've always had
What would it take
What would it feel like
To be free
What color would would you paint
If colors didn't mean the same things
If night didn't mean loneliness
And day didn't mean anxiety
What would it look like
What would it feel like
To be free
We cannot choose our battles
But we can choose our fights
We can choose where we settle
And we can say when it feels right
What if you could trade, those scars for stars
And build something better
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What I Need
03:00
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When you try to be the person you know you could be
Sometimes life hands you everything
All you could ever want
Just to see what your heart needs
I never expected to be the one
To hold out for something for myself
But it means so much
To be who I need to be
It can all seem so existential
When there's so much good next to you
But sometimes we have to hold back
And push for what we need
I never want to hold you back
I just want to show you love
But if were on different paths
Then the same would happen to me
It could seem so consequential
When there's so much good next to you
But sometimes we have to hold back
To be the people we want
This aint the romance I thought I'd find
But I think its what I need
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4. |
On Saving Us Both
02:38
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We try to be the ones
That can hold on to something nice
The things we saw ****
The things we saw in those first nights
But every night we get into it and
Push each other to the end and
I know if it's gonna fail
It's gonna end by something we say
So I know I need to leave this love yet
Everything I know says stand by your side
But if I stay with you
It requires a worser part of me
It used to be that we brought out our best
So stoked to spend any moment with you
But in time we could see the edge
Of where I hope to be and where we are and
I kept hoping if we gave it more time
We could make it less complicated
But when it requires such a change in our hearts
I know it means a change in our souls
So I know I need to leave this love yet
Everything I know says stand by your side
But if I stay with you
It requires a deadening of me
I know it's complicated for you
It isn't much better for me
But if we try to honour our love
We might see a friendship worth honouring yeah
And we can now see the difference
Between what we want and what we have and
As time moves on it starts to widen the gap
We feel between me and you
And the people we were when we first met
So as we walk away lets try and honour those hearts
And I know I need to leave this love
When every word we say breaks my heart
And I know it will be ok
We just gotta take the risk to start
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5. |
Why We Hurt
02:26
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Sometimes it gets to be too much
I ask myself what is the point
Even if you do it right you lose
And here still feeling all this loss
Does it get better? do I get better?
Does it always hurt so much?
Is it ever easier?
I met a man who fought in Vietnam
You could see the loss he felt in his eyes
Homeless and drinking, talked about the war he fought
But mostly the mistakes made when he got home
It ain't easy cuz it ain't cheap
Life has a depth that makes it life
And pain for the losses that we feel
And I'm scared
To lose another friend
To lose another love
I'm scared of the pain I'll feel
But I know
Sometimes it feels like too much
But it's cuz I'm living my life
And deep in my heart I want to live
I just don't want to hurt so much
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6. |
One Last Time
02:11
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We promise forever
Put forth the best intentions
Try to be the best people we can
And when forever turns to 8 years
We pick our tired selves up
And try to find something to stand on
If this life was a boat
I'd say we are far from shore
I'd say this compass is broken
I'd say this ain't water its fire
And if history indicates
Then I'll do this all over again
Marry another friend
And try to make it work
But it's hard
When love becomes love
And not something you say when you fuck
It likеs losing half of yourself when you split
And with a kid between you two
You try to bе the better you
And not talk as yourself, but as their dad
If this life was even fair
We'd get points for our effort
Instead of having to start over
Every goddam time
But with everything we learn
We get to get a little better
And maybe promise forever
One last time
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In this darkened room
We see nothing of our selves
So we search to find
Pieces of something familiar
The sadness hurts our eyes
As it sends us to frenzied ends
Endorphins to ease the pain
Trying to make our day something else
And we know we are alone
All 7.5 billion
Staring into the floor
Hoping to see the sky
I could tell you your beautiful
But it would betray the magnitude
Of the potentials of existence realized in each one of us
We just have to look inside
And stop saying
That you are anything
Other than everything you were meant to be
And know we are all
Feeling just as lost but
We aren't too far from where we need to be
It may take a little work
But it starts with not giving up
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