1. |
A Different Feeling
04:43
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I get myself together
Put shoes on my feet
Think I'll crank up my welder
And get these bars aligned with the beat cuz
Its starts to weigh heavy on my soul
When everyday feels the same
The same sad feelings
Like I'm stuck playing the same fucking game but
So much of living
Seems so impossible
So complicated
When It's really just showing up and
Having a smile on your face
Maybe not for what you feel but for what you know
That it's gonna be ok
That it's gonna be fucking alright and
I know what I really need now
A different feeling
A different way to breath
Cuz I've been stuck feeling
Way too low in this place
And if I'm gonna break out
It's gonna be making a step
Each fucking day
Now I know what I really need now
A different feeling
A different way to breath
Cuz I've been stuck feeling
Way too low in this place
And if I'm gonna break out
It's gonna be making a step
Each fucking day
Little by little
It gets better and better
Until OK becomes where we start from
Instead of where we stop
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2. |
...something better
02:06
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What if you could trade
Those scars for stars
And build something better
Than the life you've always had
What would it take
What would it feel like
To be free
What color would would you paint
If colors didn't mean the same things
If night didn't mean loneliness
And day didn't mean anxiety
What would it look like
What would it feel like
To be free
We cannot choose our battles
But we can choose our fights
We can choose where we settle
And we can say when it feels right
What if you could trade, those scars for stars
And build something better
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3. |
Heart Emoji
01:56
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I was new and young when we first met
One of many in a room full of punks
But you decided to take a chance on me
And invited me into yalls world
A world where respect reigned supreme
Earned by bond and not just given out
And with it came a friendship and a love
We held for each other like a family
You took me at an age when I needed help
And helped me set a higher bar for myself
And with that foundation I built my life
Knowing when I stumbled I could always come home
And when things got hard Yall were there
To help me get back, back on my path
And when one of us suffered we all shared
That pain
And we tried to ease it amongst ourselves
And held in bond was an understanding
Of a trust that wasnt easy for any of us to give
And with that came something beautiful in our lives
A family
So when I've imagined my life
Ive always imagined being by yalls side
So if your listening just know I do
Still hold that oath of friendship
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4. |
The Battle Home
02:58
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That boy lays so still he
Just went down the street
For bread and a cigarette pack
For his mom
Then a nation made the call they
Rang the bell of liberty
Calling for us in duty
In the name of us all
They send us to fight, yeah
Telling us that it's alright
We're sanctified in our morality
With god on our side
They ask us to bleed for this and
Send us to die for this
We're falling in these killing fields
Till the politicians say stop
His baby brother
Saw him as the man
And tried to do the things he saw
His big brother do
And when he went to war he
Did it on an oath he swore
To make the same sacrifice
If he was ever called to
They send us to the fight, yeah
Telling us that it's alright
We're sanctified in our morality
With god on our side
They nake us bleed for this and
Send us to die for this
We're dying in these killing fields
Till the politicians say stop
They made a memorial
They gave his brothers a place to rest and
Assinged them an honor guard and
Sang out their names
And as they laid in rest
The kids from a local high school
Were so impressed by their sacrifice
They took an oath for themselves
They send us to the fight, yeah
Telling us that it's alright
We're sanctified in our morality
With god on our side
They ask us to bleed for this and
Send us to kill for this
We're killing in these killing fields
Till the politicians say stop
And even if we win this war
It seems they always ask more
No matter any sacrifice
All saints by our side
But it makes me think for a second that
Its just part of a method
Of training us to fight
When maybe we should stop
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5. |
Why We Hurt (Remix)
02:26
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Sometimes it gets to be too much
I ask myself what is the point
Even if you do it right you lose
And here still feeling all this loss
Does it get better? do I get better?
Does it always hurt so much?
Is it ever easier?
I met a man who fought in Vietnam
You could see the loss he felt in his eyes
Homeless and drinking, talked about the war he fought
But mostly the mistakes made when he got home
It ain't easy cuz it ain't cheap
Life has a depth that makes it life
And pain for the losses that we feel
And I'm scared
To lose another friend
To lose another love
I'm scared of the pain I'll feel
But I know
Sometimes it feels like too much
But it's cuz I'm living my life
And deep in my heart I want to live
I just don't want to hurt so much
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One and one into this room
Where doors are opened and shut for you
A quiet place out of the way
De-Instituitionalization never met this place
No band of brothers but yeah we bond
Over the deep held feeling of suffering
Over the vetted risk of putting an end to
One our own lives...
Where we learn we are more the same
Than the difference that we usually feel
And We learn that silence gives a way...
To our worser thoughts
And these thoughts fester in the dark
And help comes with an awkward pause
Where we evaluate the risk to tell
But then speak our truth
I saw something inside myself
So i built compassion for me
Drawn from them
As an obligation to the fight
And though I've kept it hidden in my heart
The pain was obvious and overstated
A hesitated word
A hesitant embrace
So we keep these lines for our brothers
Our sisters in this battle
We have to share our failures
We have to share our strength
We have to break the walls
That keep us apart
And open up our hearts
And know, we are never alone
We are not alone
We are never alone
We are not alone
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In this darkened room
We see nothing of our selves
So we search to find
Pieces of something familiar
The sadness hurts our eyes
As it sends us to frenzied ends
Endorphins to ease the pain
Trying to make our day something else
And we know we are alone
All 7.5 billion
Staring into the floor
Hoping to see the sky
I could tell you your beautiful
But it would betray the magnitude
Of the potentials of existence realized in each one of us
We just have to look inside
And stop saying
That you are anything
Other than everything you were meant to be
And know we are all
Feeling just as lost but
We aren't too far from where we need to be
It may take a little work
But it starts with not giving up
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